Feelings of guilt

I have been having feelings of guilt for the last few months now. Mainly these consist of not being a good wife, a friend, daughter, sister and sometimes a co-worker. I am not sure why I get these feelings and sometimes they are very overwhelming. Lately my guilty feelings have consisted of not keeping the house clean. Being so limited because of my feet and my back, it's making me feel guilty. Then I try to do everything at once and sure enough I pay the price.

I hope that these feelings diminish as I head out of my pregnancy and into motherhood because I know I'll start with feelings of being a bad mother too and I don't want that.

This is just something that I wanted to blog about and see if anyone goes through these phases just as being a mother or a friend.

I also wanted to mention in this blog that my heart goes out to the Machado family. They have suffered a dear loss and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know your Dad is in a MUCH better place and he is not suffering anymore.

update on week 35

Well....it's all coming together now. We have the crib set here with the room being set up next week some time. They did a superb job putting the room together and I can't wait to start decorating it.

I am officially done my job on Friday, which is only 2 days away. I have had so many well wishes and so many supportive co-workers, it's been unbeleivable. I don't know how much to thank them all for all of the kind words and the help that they've offered my over the last few months. They've also put up with alot with my complaints and my moodiness. Glad the end is near.

I had my week 35 appointment with my doctor today and she informed me that I will now start going weekly. She doesn't beleive that the baby has dropped yet, but she said it could be possible. It could be that the baby is moving up and down.

So....I proceeded to ask her to give me an estimate of what the baby weighs right about now and she said around 6lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh boy! I think I might be headed for a 10 pounder. Because of this news, I think that I might just go for the epidural no matter what now. I am too scared to know what will lie ahead during delivery.

I am up every night now for a couple of hours so if you see emails from me at weird hours, you'll know why.

Thanks again everyone for the support.

It's that time.....

for the crib set to arrive. Rob is presently rearranging the 2 rooms so that we can set up the new room now. I can't believe how close it is. Only about 41 days left to go if he arrives on Nov 30.

Non-sleeping fun!

I was up quite early today, 2:30AM. Thank God I was off and I didn't have to worry about being tired later. It's times like this I am going to miss having fun with Rob. Well, he decided to get up and work at 3AM. At 5AM, after being up for a couple of hours, we decided to make a Tim Horton's run as we figured the baked goods would be available and fresh. Sure enough, we got a couple of muffins and they were still warm!! They were so delicious!!! Is there anything better than going to Tim Horton's in your PJs and getting nice fresh warm muffins at 5AM????? I don't think so. I think this morning will stick with me for a long time and these are the few moments in my life I will treasure.

My Chatham shower

My shower in Chatham on Sept 24-06 was very, very nice. My Mom and my sister did an excellent job hosting and preparing. All of my closest friends were there and they were all so good to me. I think I got the most amazing gifts and clothes. My sister and my mother, of course, out did themselves. My sister had a friend make her an amazing diaper display.

My good friend Judith also came down for a visit with her new baby, Meghan. She is sooooo cute and adorable and such a good baby.

I am so lucky to have such a great group of friends and the support from them are just wonderful. Here are some more pics from the shower. Enjoy!